muneca_brava

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I always start thinking about Dreamwidth in the fall/winter. Maybe it's the seasonal depression? Maybe I associate this place with coziness and warmth? I also feel nostalgic for the old LJ days whenever I find a new fandom. I feel adrift now, trying to find a community, when it used to be easy to just join something. I remember when I started watching BBC Merlin, how fun it was to join the LJ community and meet people there. Good times. Now my fannishness is so much more solitary, which makes it feel more unhealthy? I hang out on reddit sometimes, but it's not quite the kind of fandom I used to like being a part of.

Tumblr is so weird for new fandoms. I started reblogging kpop stuff because it was all I could think about, but I felt kind of bad about it. Because who was even seeing it? I only have a few followers, but none of them are in this fandom. When I reblog movies or tv shows, at least it might interest anyone. But I know how many people I unfollowed over the years for turning into kpop blogs. There is no easy way to join a community on Tumblr unless you create, and I have no desire to do that. It's the same as when I used to reblog Supernatural gifsets; I always apologized in the tags because I felt like such a cliché. I usually make comments in the tags, and I never assume anyone reads them, but it's okay if they do. But what's the point of commenting in the tags of kpop posts when none of the people seeing them know what I'm talking about?

I love talking to people about things that I'm obsessed with, and I miss it. When I think back to my early years in fandom, I talked to people so much. I had ongoing chats with online friends about Doctor Who, there were reaction posts about episodes, etc. I also had RL fannish friends to talk to. Luckily, two of my best friends know about my fandom life and one of them is fannish as well, so I can talk to them about that part of me, but obviously I haven't seen much of them this year. And also, there is only so much you can yell at people about a Korean boyband before they start backing away from you, loll. The last time I saw them, I showed them 6 whole youtube videos before getting a hold of myself.
I wonder why I feel the need to apologize so much to no one. Probably nobody will read this post, yet I still feel like saying 'sorry for rambling' or 'sorry for coming to yet another place to yell about BTS'. Who cares!

Anyway. I might use this blog to ramble sometimes, I might not. Generally, I'm doing fine, I guess. This year is fucking weird, I feel like we need to keep taking a step back to realize that sometimes. My best friend is getting married next week and at best, I get to congratulate her from a distance with a mask on at city hall and then go home. Right now I'm waiting to find out if we're going into full lockdown again and if I can leave my house to come to work tomorrow or not. Last weekend, I couldn't see the only person I've been able to hug this last year because she had a light cold. Whenever I think about the state of the country and the world, I start to panic, so all I do is think about BTS. I'm finding it incredibly hard to figure out if I'm coping alright now partly because of the new obsession, of if the new obsession itself is a sign I'm not coping very well at all.

I.
Hello to the new friends I made on the friending meme!
I should make one of those pinned intro things at the top of my blog, but until then, if you want to get to know me you can take a look at some of my recent posts, I've introduced myself and talked a bit about my essential media and stuff there.

For everyone : I have been locking posts where I talk about personal information (mostly because I get paranoid about RL people finding me and seeing what I write about them). If I haven't given you access, it's probably because we haven't really interacted, so all you have to do is come way hi ;)

II.
I took the trope test thing because people were doing it.

Before going into the actual top five, I can already tell you the conclusion: Essentially, a lot of my fic preferences come down to the fact that I like reading about characters who are already close (good friends, lovers, whatever) rather than following people from the first meeting up to getting together, but I also love drama and angst, so most established relationship stories are too boring.
My perfect fic - and in practice, most of the ones I keep going back to - probably shows the characters getting together in the first few chapters. If a story has the love confession, the first kiss, and diving into bed all in the final chapter, chances are I'm never going back to it.

I just went through my bookmarks, and yeah: every single story has the love interests kiss, have sex, or go on a date before the halfway mark, except for the ones where they are best friends who are practically living together within the first two chapters, or where the focus is one them becoming friends and the romantic relationship is incidental (all the Harry/Draco by Saras_Girl).

( Top 5 tropes under the cut )


III.
There was no Critical Role this week, and I also had no plans on Friday and Saturday night, and I genuinely felt at a loss? What...did I used to do at the end of a work week?? It has become such a tradition for me when I don't have plans to stop working early on Fridays, don't cook for once, get some wine, watch Critical Role. Thank god it's back this week.

So Tumblr is up to some nonsense and I eternally miss LJ but don't trust it, so I'm trying this site for a bit. If you see this, chances are you met me through a friending meme or something so here's a little bit about me:
27, she/her, Belgian.

Into movies and books. Have been in fandom for about a decade, with main fandoms through the years being
Doctor Who, Merlin, The Social Network, Harry Potter, Game of Thrones, Supernatural.

I'm currently obsessed with Critical Role so if I end up using this site I'll probably talk about that a lot.

I'm on Tumblr @sallylockharts